our LOVE game

we said goodbye for the second time. Actually i really hate goodbye from you.
the story of us is very complicated. i hate it when you keep calling me SAYANG.
for you it juzt a joke and to make fun with me but for me it really hurts coz i know you never mean it. so GOODBYE is the best way for us. after we go through with all of this.
dari awal saya da dapat agak....sebenarnya it is a big mistake for us to keep in touch again.we were so happy during last few weeks rite pakdo?=) we said that kite sebenarnya dpertemukan untuk berkawan not as a kapel...yeah....but last nite...juz bcoz i cannot give you their pictures...you're willling to say goodbye...never mind i ssaid..law awk xmao kawan ngn saya...saya xdapat pakse awk tuk kwn ngn sy...n last nite we said GOODBYE 4 d second time...okay fine....mungkin sy sepatutnya lenyap terus dari hidup awk...thats what im doing during this few years...but i swear...it is a big mistake for US to KEEP IN TOUCH again...so dear pakdo sy da janji xmao sakitkan ati awk ag kn...so sy rasa...mgkin this is the best way...lenyap kn diri dalam hidup awk..kerana law sy still d cc awk...sy akan berterusan menyakitkan hati awk...coz im juz a simple person yg banyak melakukan kesilapan...sometimes...im happy coz u're come back 4 me....
sometimes....im sad coz its too late...
sometimes....im confused coz im willing to forget you....
sometimes....i regret 4 all the this that juz happened between US
AND EVERYTIME...tears keep falling down when i have time juz for ME AND YOU...
Ya ALLAH....walaupon awk xkembali lam idup saya...saya tetap jalani hidup saya tanpa awk as usual...so WHY sy mesti rasa sedih lg...
Ya TUHAN...aku memohon cukupla diuji aku tentang CINTA,,,,,
siyesly....aku da xsanggup hadapi ni semua lg....
kenapa sudah tertulis kat sana NAZIHAH  will fall in LOVE with PAKDo....
i dont want to lose myself again...
i dont to get sick again....
i dont want to be a weak girl again....
BECOZ OF YOU....
bertahun tahun saya cuba lupakan awk....and its hurt,,,
so plz....jgn sia2kan usaha sy wk.....
biarkan awk ngn dunia awk...and saya ngn dunia sy....
and one more thing...
please get out from me.....
I WANT TO LOVE SOMEBODY ELSE
Ya ALLAH.....tolongla HAPUSKAN CINTAKU PADA SI DIA..
KERANA AKU TAHU....
DIA ADALAH ORANG YANG SALAH
KAU PERTEMUKAN KEPADAKU........
amin...